This really really hurts.

So i've learned some pretty bad things about Khris. Like he's stolen a bunch of money from a job a couple years ago and spend 42 days in jail but really should spend like 7 years in jail. Plus was pulled over twice in my car so now my car is on his records.

I don't know what to do. I know i can't/shouldn't be with him.

So Khris and i aren't really do much for Christmas. He doesn't have alot of money and i also am short on money. We agreed to spend it with our own family which is fine with me. I just am used to giving gifts for Christmas. I was trying to think of some christmas gift alternative for him. Any ideas?

At least i have some time to think.

I went out with Khris today.

We met up at church then did lunch and a movie.

I had a great time. With the jokes and flirting. It felt so nice and exciting. It hadn't been like that with Shaun. Or not recently anyway.

Khris acted like a gentleman and opened doors and paid for everything. I could tell he was a little nervous but he eventually held my hand during the movie then moved to having his arm around me and stroking my arm and pulling me close. It made my heart race just to feel him around me. No kiss happened but perhaps next time. I don't want to rush anything at all. I really really want a good friendship with him and then maybe a relationship.

I am smiling as i write this.  I can't wait to hang out with him again.